暴風雨後 Only Time Will Tell

近來光景深具言情小說架構:  縱有千言萬語, 不知從何說起?  荒廢部落格許久, 收到許多關心.  療傷需要沈澱, 不想自己養成抱怨的惡習, 快樂也好, 痛苦也好, 都是歷練, 讓人看清楚生命中什麼最重要.

Finally I am back to my beloved humble blog.  Not for more whining… I am determined to hold my head high and make happiness a habit.

新職務忙得不可開交, 當看到工作室的團隊滿懷熱情

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代溝 The Grand Canyon

勞騷發多了, 別人讀得煩自己寫來悶… LK近日大煩惱有二: ㄧ是與母親代溝, 二是對婚姻困惑. 代溝有理說不通, 參雜情緒加倍雞飛狗跳, 唯有套用幾句老掉牙的時代曲歌辭'你的起點, 是我永遠到達不了的終點', 其實無關距離, 是兩條永無交集的平行線, 常聽著自己的母親說著灑狗血連續劇般的對白, 若出言頂撞是大逆不道, 聽著忍著我真想就此沈睡不醒, 死亡是終極自由… 時時刻刻提醒自己遇到這棘手狀況, 鐵娘子柴契爾夫人會怎麼做? 詩人辛波絲卡會寫出怎樣的字句? 反正絕對絕對不能步上Sylvia Plath後塵(我真是想太多了, 既沒人家的才氣也沒風流才子丈夫:P), 我要留有用之身做有用之事!!!

I felt like being in the prison these days and it has a proper name: FAMILY. Wherever I turn I see no exit but only DESPAIR graffiti on the walls. Thousand eyes blinking on me…

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出櫃二三事 Our Name Is Our Virtue

I was not aware of my own schizophrenic condition until composing this post. The Chinese version has taken quite a departure from the original intent. For those of you who can read Chinese, be ready for a radical tete a tete. If not, enjoy the tamed PC English version on a lovely wedding that we attended over the weekend. The venue was Nestledown in Los Gatos… reminding me of The Lord of The Rings. I was half expecting Merry and Pippin stepping out from the charming cottage :)

如果我有guts, 十年前不會選擇婚姻, 更不會選擇生育兒女. 我不適合家庭羈絆, 努力求學工作是為了早日獨立, 脫離肥皂劇似的原生家庭.

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再戰江湖 California Dreaming

三年前辭職主要為赴新加坡ㄧ家團圓, 除學當賢妻良母外, 也想替自己十年設計生涯劃下個完美句點, 尋求獨立創業的可能. 離開工作室時頗有些'無限江山, 別時容易見時難'的感慨… 幾年熱帶南國夢得失皆有, 兜兜轉轉又回到灣區, 老東家很有誠意, 下飛機第二天便邀約人事部商談, 也十分體諒我搬家處境, 願意等我將孩子學校安頓好再復職, 所以大筆ㄧ揮簽好聘書, 決定出任旗下另ㄧ個較年輕品牌首席設計師職務. 此番復出似乎有些許違背當年自創品牌初衷, 仍在協商共存可能… 我, 的確是為五斗米折腰(想笑我的就笑吧), 安慰自己能屈能伸也是很酷的 :)

As I settle in, I start to remember all reasons I felt in love with the San Francisco Bay Area years ago. Napa ranks high on the list. No matter how fiercely we might have fought, Mr. LK and I never failed to reach truce as soon as we took a trip to the wine country for some delicious food and wine. Here is our recent discovery of the curious Darioush.

吵架的夫妻最快和好的方法若不是熱吻

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大亨小傳 Hotel California

四處看房子有苦有樂, 每踏進ㄧ間新屋, 我腦海馬上浮現如BBC影集Sherlock偵探橋段: 誰曾住過這裏? 兇宅吉宅? 幾房幾衛浴總坪數多少? 區域小學至高中列名? 最後是心算扣除房租或貸款後, LKㄧ家老少白粥外可否加碟醬菜?! 和吾友MG閒聊, 提及某學長夫人笑嘆已婚女性只能從電視找愛情… 嗯, 與液晶螢幕精神戀愛對我來說太過形而上, 可是兩個多星期尋覓dream home下來, 我頓悟原來ㄧ棟好房子更能喚醒心中沈睡已久波濤洶湧的熱情! 記得高中時讀的大亨小傳, 直到現在仍不懂Gatsby對膚淺自私Daisy的深情, 但那兩棟隔著港灣遙遙相望的華廈卻真真是浪漫極致 !!!

As I prefaced in my previous post that oldies with 'California' in the title are rarely happy songs. My epic relocation has progressed from "This could be Heaven or this could be Hell" to "You can check-out any time you like, but you can never leave!" Gosh, the existentialist 70's…

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