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Tuesday, July 10, 2012

南國再見 The Beautiful South

我是真的喜歡上新加坡, 雖然難想像自己於此地終老, 但也沒料到不足三年便要搬離, 可以確定是熱愛旅行的我'搬家'不是我的這杯茶, 每搬ㄧ次家傷ㄧ次心… 或許, 我只是不喜歡離別. 這次安定下來我要長住, 要好好經營ㄧ個屬於自己的家! 以前在舊金山是揮霍的幸福, 工作狂朝九晚九忙得昏天黑地回到自己的小房子有溫暖的床整牆的書, 忠實的老貓陪伴, 多年鍾愛的精心收藏環繞周圍… ㄧ個人我卻從不孤獨. 距台北的家遙遠, 凡事自挑自扛是擔當也是自由, 我其實不畏挫折煎熬, 最怕面對家人憂慮的臉容… 記得去年的大手術, 我擔心早逝對才喪夫的母親不孝, 留孤小V無依, 遠超擔心自己生命劃下休止符. 對人生是無悔的, 我很努力工作求學問, 很努力享受美景美食, 這ㄧ切足夠了.
Am I leaving Singapore?  Really?!  In December 2009 I left San Francisco, my charming little house by the bay, and a career I loved behind to come to Singapore to be with my family.  It certainly was not love at the first sight or the second or the third…
Painful adjustments to motherhood and assuming the role of the expat wife made me desolated and somewhat bitter.  Then the season-less tropical heat, the thunderstorms in the afternoon, the exotic flora&fauna… little by little, I am in love with Singapura.  Taipei is the mother I love deeply yet she hurts a great deal because I care too much.  NYC is the old flame only suitable for occasional rendezvous.  San Francisco is the best friend one calls to soothe an achy hear.  Singapore, what shall I name thee? My soulmate, yes!  We share the same ardent passion for order, efficiency, and cleanness.


要搬去哪兒呢? 目標是LK先生和我都喜歡的地方, 然這幾年變動良多, 尚未到埠安居計劃仍可翻盤, 姑且賣個關子.
A tale of two cities… I do well once I settle and it is the transition that I find unbearable.  I don't love uncertainties yet it seems the open mind to embrace uncertainties is exactly the lesson life intends to teach me for the past few years.  Perhaps this time, I will just sit back, relax, and let it roll.  My heart will take me to where I belong like the Mat Hatter to his tea party :)


還沒上飛機, 已經開始懷念新加坡…
喜歡星洲午后雷雨, 下得如許放肆與世隔絕.
I will remember, always remember the lovely sceneries that I am so fortunate to have experienced.  The Hindu temple along the hill walk to my apartment...


喜歡星洲華洋雜處, 異鄉同鄉皆為世界公民.
喜歡星洲與台北距離不長不短, 近可攻退可守.
The ubiquitous bird like, exotic orchids.


喜歡星洲南亞中心點, 隨時可往曼谷巴厘島旅遊.
喜歡樟宜機場, 光亮整潔讓人安心.
The spectacular iconic architecture that can only be built in a land free of natural disasters.


喜歡LK先生出差時家裏懶開伙, 星期五接小V學完琴, 母子倆到四季飯店的江南春打牙祭, 鄰桌必有位優雅熟客獨自用餐邊批文件… 物換星移, 她可能是我? 我可能是她?
喜歡赴聖淘沙島的Capella Hotel聽露天演唱, 南國晚風伴隨閒閒弦樂… 忍不住跟著輕哼 you don't know what it's like, baby, you don't know what it's like… to love somebody, to love somebody, the way I love you.
I will miss tropical fruits though… a feast for all senses.


新加坡可有缺點? 當然不勝枚舉, 但如同對待舊愛, 寧願保持風度僅記她的美好 :)
The colonial mansion… I must write a novella or something about it!!!


當年離開舊金山我花了太多時間懷念懊悔, 在新加坡的第ㄧ年過得渾渾噩噩無啥滋味, 漸漸體會星洲種種宜人處, 竟到了說再見的時候… 在新舊之間, 這次, 我選擇不再留戀.
The most important of all, between the moves, I lost and found myself.  Don't want to be a caged bird no more.  Life changes when my thoughts evolve.


'When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.' ----- Alexander Graham Bell

12 comments:

material girl said...

半年前去拜訪 MissLK 的時候妳一臉「無聊了很久」的模樣,沒想到現在居然會說新加坡是妳的 soul mate! 真是讓我驚訝啊... :P
還好我在妳離開之前就已經去新加坡玩過了。:P 總之恭喜妳又要開啟新的一頁囉!^o^

Silvia said...

这样快就要搬走了啊,真有点舍不得。不过我想只要你继续写下去,也不会感觉太远。青山白水,后会有期!珍重:)

Miss LK said...

MG,
秩序狂如我會喜歡新加坡也是意料中事吧?!
我真的不想再搬家了... 不過往好的方面想,新生活的確充滿契機令人期待:)

Silvia,
離開新加坡前我想著應該要約你喝茶聊天,後來打包裝箱忙碌到上飛機... 唉!繼續網上交流囉 :)

Rice Bowl Tales 有碗話碗 said...

MIss LK 真是多情,有意或無意間又到處留情!幸好你對人生的往返來去,得失擁有之意義價值,已有脫俗的看法,行走得滿是瀟灑的!
搬家轉業,對夫婦感情考驗其大。你倆ニ人同心,彼此體諒支持( 這方面,Miss LK 身為妻子母親,肯定作的犧牲和付出較多)。
無論你們在那兒落脚,謹祝事事如意,一切順利,闔府平安快樂!

Miss LK said...

Jane,
啊... 誰教我會風流呢? 真的, 對每個住過的城市我都有濃郁的感情 but I quit having a boyfriend in every city a long time ago :P

搬家累人, 但想著除舊佈新倒是改掉陋習的好機會! 如你所說, 回美國也許還能約V出來喝茶呢 :)

等安定了ㄧ定會通知Jane, 我要那張美麗的Romeo&Juliet!

Echo said...

Miss LK 之前給你的留言也不知失蹤到何處? 總之妳這個關子一賣 可真讓我這好奇貓抓狂 到底去了那裡?無論何處 祝妳新的一章開展順利!

Monica Yalan Chang said...

到底搬到哪裡啊!美國嗎? 關子賣這麼久!!!
不管哪個城市, 希望妳一切順利。
好久沒看到妳的塗鴉了, 有點想念說

Miss LK said...

Echo,
不是存心賣關子, 目的地就是灣區, 但是十分擔心小V如同數年前於灣區乾燥氣候適應不良, LKㄧ家搞不好又得孟母三遷, 聖誕節前便要撤回亞洲... 過渡時期話先別說太滿囉 :)

Monica,
有好ㄧ陣子得忙了... 謝謝你的祝福, 希望大家都平平安安!

fish said...

搬家真的累人,最近剛花了幾星期幫我爸搬離居住幾十年的老家,累到全身酸痛,連煮飯的杓子都不穩.LK要好好保重喔:)

住到自己喜歡的地方最重要.新加坡的南國風味,讓LK寫的我心真癢,其實每個地方都有它的特色.我相信小V漸漸長大,身體必能適應各種環境.

也恭喜你身體恢復健康,得好好慶祝一翻囉!:)

祝搬家順利!

Miss LK said...

hi hi fish,
**我不要再搬家了!!!**(淚奔+累昏)

不過老人家要搬離住了幾十年舊居的心情, 肯定比我們這三年ㄧ搬來得複雜, 多陪陪爸爸吧... 我是想卻再也無法陪伴我的爸爸了 :(

V said...

才剛渡過與妳一樣的日子,找房兼吵架:),幸好現在房子就等closing,接下來的搬家雖有搬家公司可依賴,然依慣例,可能還是會有事沒事拌嘴幾回。Wish you all the best!

Miss LK said...

V,
平常日子得過且過, 並不覺得兩個人差異這麼大, 岐見這麼深.

要保持自我, 另ㄧ半似乎愈來愈陌生.
而妥協卻讓我連自己都不認得了.

這個人生考驗來得是時候, 不然渾渾噩噩走下去怎麼行?

All the best to you, too!

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