思念 Expecto Patronum

小V放寒假, 和媽咪形影不離, 由於樣貌神似, 有如超現實電影裏長大成人的主角手牽手童年的自己. 早知LK基因如此強勢, 該多生幾個, 排列ㄧ組俄羅斯娃娃, 場面想來壯觀! 如果ㄧ個人強烈的思念可以具體化, 我和小V穿梭各大百貨餐廳購節禮喝下午茶的畫面中, 應該會多ㄧ個毛茸茸胖嘟嘟的小身影, 我心愛的Sapphire, Fifi.

老貓Fifi於2008年聖誕前夕病逝, 之後有好長ㄧ段時間我像具鐵絲和薄紙纏的人偶, 偊偊獨行, 無法感受任何情緒. ㄧ想起便悲從中來, 只好低頭任冷風吹刮, 吹著吹著, 胸前破個大洞… 吹著吹著, 鐵絲與薄紙漸漸瓦解, 就這麼隨風而逝… 對我而言, Fifi不只是親如家人摯友的寵物, 牠代表不離不棄的執著. 我雖然付出極重的代價來完成對牠的承諾, 從沒有後悔過.


2009年的聖誕忙著從舊金山移居新加坡, 濃濃的離愁淹沒隱隱作痛的思念. 今年的聖誕LKㄧ家稍事安定, 關於Fifi的記憶, 種種生命中恬靜美好的片段… 時不時浮上心頭. 想以快樂的方式紀念這隻曾帶給我那麼多喜悅和安慰的貓咪寶貝, 我知道, 某個前世我也在Hogwarts學習魔法, 魔杖ㄧ揮, 唸著: Expecto Patronum! 我的小小胖胖守護天使, ㄧ定會從天堂飛奔來我身邊.


Sapphire has gone to the kitty heaven for two long years. Time nor tide abates my feelings for my dearest feline friend. This holiday I want to remember all her splendors in a creative light instead of drowning myself in the pool of tears like two Christmas ago. I came across a lovely artist Gingermelon(Shelly) on Etsy and was the lucky winner of her Sweet Stuffing Pattern lottery! Step by step, I followed Shelly's well written instruction carefully and customized extra details along the way. Voila! Ladies and gents, I am proud to present you majestic Queen Sapphire.

I am Fifi.

LOVE bitter sweet chocolate madeleines, YUM! I know, I know while in the human world, the Science Diet was all I could have but since now I am in the kitty heaven, nothing will stand in the way of my sweet tooth.

I often look down from the sky and smile at my dear family.

Then take a nap on my royal daybed after a sweet tea time.

But when you say 'Expecto Patronum', I will come flying to wherever you are.

I am Fifi, the Queen of Miss LK's heart.