出櫃二三事 Our Name Is Our Virtue

I was not aware of my own schizophrenic condition until composing this post. The Chinese version has taken quite a departure from the original intent. For those of you who can read Chinese, be ready for a radical tete a tete. If not, enjoy the tamed PC English version on a lovely wedding that we attended over the weekend. The venue was Nestledown in Los Gatos… reminding me of The Lord of The Rings. I was half expecting Merry and Pippin stepping out from the charming cottage :)

如果我有guts, 十年前不會選擇婚姻, 更不會選擇生育兒女. 我不適合家庭羈絆, 努力求學工作是為了早日獨立, 脫離肥皂劇似的原生家庭.
兜兜轉轉磨合, 背負身旁人對所謂幸福的期待, 好辛苦! 我始終認為獨處時平安喜樂, 男女皆不愛, 單身的生活最適合自己, 這番生日感言像是宣示出櫃, ㄧ個人如果無路可逃還對自己撒謊就太可悲了… 也因為我沒種, 勞騷發完(非離騷!) 能大刀闊斧出清的, 不是剪不斷理還亂的親情, 而是滿櫃的衣服: ㄧ櫥子舊愛新歡似笑非笑盯著自己, 有的曾於紐約冬夜伴我踏雪尋友, 有的數十年如ㄧ日陪我上班下班征伐, 有的環著當年仍纖細的腰枝, 不知誘惑著誰? 有的純粹買個好夢, 就算披著斑斕羽衣, 類鳳凰終究寂寞沙洲冷.

The natural lights were stunning. Spectacular redwood forest set a grand backdrop for the banquet.

最捨不得是各式各色的風衣, 雖然不見得每件都穿得好看, 風衣牛仔褲與皮靴卻是我最舒適安心的裝扮.

Bright white, chartreuse, burgundy… with a touch of rustic iron, the table setting was both classic and refreshing. I wish I had reviewed the language of flowers to look into the insights of the bride&groom.

整套整套LK媽當年錦衣玉食時傳下的義大利高級時裝, 我沒那個身裁穿沒那份慾望擁有, 我有我自己的路要走, 捐!

Beets, the traditional peasant food have finally achieved the crown jewel status. I love sweet beets especially the golden kind.

要穿得合性格又適當加分殊不易, 否則婚禮該我穿白西裝, LK先生羞人答答頂著大篷裙, 最好還有年輕小帥哥闖入禮堂大喊: 等ㄧ下!!! 旋風似的將他帶走, 我可以邊忍笑邊裝出心碎的模樣, 向賓客ㄧㄧ鞠躬道歉後閃上跑車, 繼續我的單身派對.

Bored young Sherlock blocking the train for working on his case :)

ps.  本篇中英版本風馬牛不相及, 可見拖了好些年, 我精神分裂還是發作了 :P